GOING OFFLINE FOR A WHILE

@I have made this decission because that I now facing some complications in my life. Family matters. What is it? Just let me simply put it this way, my grandma is 80 years old and she's now in the ortopedhic ward. I'm the only person who can attend her for now. And should I say that, I love my grandma even she is 'nyanyuk' sometimes. She's having multiple illness and even the doctors are having headaches for how to handle my grandma's case. So, I guess I shoudl stop here before there are tears flooding this lovely mother earth.

FADE TO BLACK

@Everything is fading away from me. Family, friends.. Even my life seems like it's fading away. Has my time come? Am I ready for all of this? Is it too early for me? But I felt like my life haven't move a lot.

THE WORLD THAT I'M IN

@Complicated. Stressful. Lonely. Confusing. Blurry. There's a lot of words that I could use to point out how my life is but what I can tell you is that out of 100 words that I could use, 90 words are related with bad things. I've been trying so hard to tell myself that my life is better by comparing those who lives in Africa or Gaza, something like that, but still, it doesn't comfort me or cheer me up. Not at all. I've found out that my life is quite miserable but I'm quite good at hiding my emotions, sort to speak. My friends told me that.

MY CAREER
@There's not much happened and as usual I'll try to accept that maybe I'm just following my father's footsteps just to be a clerk. I could also say that I'm involved in accounting. For those accountants out there, I fully respect you guys. And it is a stressful job no matter how good you are in managing accounts. The truth is, I prefer art rather than do some 'sempoa' stuffs. I'm good in numbers but it's not what I love or like. People say I have a very good photographic memory and my memory cells in my brain are the best in memorizing phone numbers, I'm the fastest in simple maths in 8 digits max. Eh... No wonder my collagues been treating me like a phonebook. Huh~

MY WEEKENDS
@Boring. For some people. Because I'm a person who's not into 'jual muka kat bandar' type of guy. Hehe. I usually spend most of my time at home, watching some movies, hunt some monsters (info: I'm into Monster Hunter Freedom 2 PSP Game), or I'll just do some laundry of my own. How do I eat? Well, a bachelor can cook, right?

Those are some things about me. How about yours?

More of Shinji's World to come so stay tune.

THE REAL ME? - TAGGED BY MEEZA

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.

How do you view success:

You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:

You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:

You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

MOVIE BUFFS : TWILIGHT

@Well.. I know that I'm a bit late to watch this movie, but it's because I was waiting for the DVD (original one ok?) to come out. At first I was hoping for more actions. But then I was wrong. I didn't get it when I watch it the first time, but then I watch it again, it is all about LOVE. It is quite a heavy movie to watch and for two seperate beings to be in love and it doesn't matter who or what you are. It touches me. As the script says, "So the lion falls for the lamb". Imagine how cruel it is and how complicated it is for a vampire to fall in love with a person which could be it's MEAL. Cruel yet BEAUTIFUL. It's not really a movie that makes me want to watch it over and over again but I would give it a 7 out of 10 ratings just because of the message that the movie wanted to spread.

And it makes me wonder... Should I become a vampire to discover my true love? Sigh...

SECONDHAND SERENADE - YOUR CALL

Waiting for your call, I'm sick, call I'm angry
call I'm desperate for your voice
Listening to the song we used to sing
In the car, do you remember
Butterfly, Early Summer
It's playing on repeat, Just like when we would meet
Like when we would meet

Cause I was born to tell you I love you
and I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight

Stripped and polished, I am new, I am fresh
I am feeling so ambitious, you and me, flesh to flesh
Cause every breath that you will take
when you are sitting next to me
will bring life into my deepest hopes, What's your fantasy?
(What's your, what's your, what's your...)

Cause I was born to tell you I love you
and I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight

And I'm tired of being all alone, and this solitary moment makes me want to come back home
x4
(I know everything you wanted isn't anything you have)

Cause I was born to tell you I love you
and I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight

Cause I was born to tell you I love you
and I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight
(I know everything you wanted isn't anything you have)

@The lyrics reached into my heart, my soul, and nearly made me drop into tears. Because this song means something to me. Because this song represents me. And this song describe my feelings and my heart perfectly right now.

THE WORD OF THE DAY IS...

"IF"

@If that person really wants to know you, wants to be friends with you, it doesn't matter how you look, they will try or would chat with you, text you, send you a message or two. Their effort and willingness plays the major part here. But by being mysterious, plus a few creativity touches, and show your passion, would attract those who are in the same path, the same road, the same interest with yours, and more.

- People, this is my answer of why I wear my mask in almost all my Friendster pictures. I wanted to see those who are sincere being friends with me. And to be friends with those who have the same passion with mine, things could be easier.

@Today, again, and as usual I start my day with Super Power 6 in 1 Instant Tongkat Ali Drink. Served hot and yummy. Fuh~ I slept early last night. I think it was before 8 p.m. And my housemates wonders if I'm still alive or dead last night because they were crazy like... erm... crazy lah, knocking on my bedroom door for many times.

"Aku rasa macam nak kasi pecah je pintu ko malam tadi. Ingatkan dah jadi mayat ke aper. Kitorang nak ajak ko kluar makan ler.", said one of them.

"Sorry la pok, betul-betul terlena aku. Penat sangat kot. Mungkin pasal dah lama aku asyik tido lewat je. Lagipun sekarang aku ingat nak diet sket la. Aku dah nampak macam org 3 bulan mengandung.", I said.

"Diet hotak ko. Hahaha."

- Shinji on a diet? Weird right? For me not really. I think my 'perut' is 'boroi' already. Hahaha. Trying not to eat much and late at night. Because last night it was around 10 p.m they try to ask me out to have dinner. I have to reschedule my eating time and see what happens. I have never eat so much like I have been this past few months. I ate so much until some of my friends told me that my body have some 'jin', something like that. It's kind of scary but what the heck? My body is gaining more fat but my weight is still the same. There is no 'jin' but definitely there is something wrong with my body. The word BOROI is haunting me. TIDAKKKKK!!!~

p/s : Sorry, no interesting picture today. Maybe later. ^_^